Month: March 2015

Free To Pop, Yet?

The eager ‘The Joint’ chiropractor says not to crack your own spine and you haven’t been for two weeks,
The terrible ‘Leggs’ pantyhose that you bought yesterday rips before you stuck your foot in it this morning,
The old ‘Tattered Cover’ cashier says that they are moving your favorite bookstore/getaway far away,
The cute ‘Best Buy’ guy says that they are out of screen protectors for your newly scratched phone,
The forgetful ‘Starbucks’ barista forgets that you ordered a drink and then makes it weird,
The bored ‘Clinique’ girl gave you a weird distant interaction as you purchase your expensive makeup,

The headache you got later, would not go away no matter what you did,

You know that you failed that group interview today and lost a day’s wages during that time.

Boy, do I want to crack my own neck… What a bad day.

P.S. Damn you present tense. Damn you verbs.

My Home

I pack my bags once more
I close the door
There isn’t really anything to say
I am gone again
I didn’t think that this day
That this frame
Would enter my life again
I couldn’t keep up with the challenge
Nor did I take it seriously
Am I really filled with that much damage
To go about and ruin something good
Something real, something full of hope (But now I’m homeward bound)

**Navigating, searching, praying
Doing all the things to beg off unknown
Doing all right after all the wrong
Not justifying the way I am
But the way I search for nothing
Searching for something**

It seems like I’ve failed once again
There is no serious reason to pretend
Why I could not take that into account
No job, no money, ass kicked about
There is no ambition to the condition I feel
Or the way my mind works or a healthy way to heal
To this new unknown day
I just want to say
I am stress free – my mind plays tricks
There are lie upon lies in this mix
I can’t seem to comprehend that this affinity
With wanting nothing and wanting the world
But you should know one thing: I am unfurled (And I’m homeward bound)

**Navigating, searching, praying
Doing all the things to beg off unknown
Doing all right after all the wrong
Not justifying the way I am
But the way I search for nothing
Searching for something**

Where is the place where I shall rest my head?
From where I abandoned this other place and fled…
Is it covered by a roof made of wood and tile-
Or maybe a box with words in calligraphy style?
Is it a place in your heart – like I dream about –
Or is it a physical structure shallow and stout?
Or where contentment and love live side by side –
Not where pillow and pills are where you try to hide?
I can’t refrain from the question of truth,
Where is home for me? I can’t understand that- I need proof.
Where does the shame stop and the honesty roll?
I can’t decide that now, I just need a goal.

**Navigating, searching, praying
Doing all the things to beg off unknown
Doing all right after all the wrong
Not justifying the way I am
But the way I search for nothing
While I search for something**

Where does your home lie in a sea of troubles?
The ebb and flow of disaster and coupled
With a disdain for the future
But with hope for sanity
One day I will know this
But now I can’t walk through this vanity
That our world had set up for me to endure
I am lost. I am lost. I am lost.
But I will find my home one day,
My value and purpose to all of humankind.
I promise a better me everyday.
I hope I deliver but for now, I’ll sway

**Navigating, searching, praying
Doing all the things to beg off unknown
Doing all right after all the wrong
Not justifying the way I am
But the way I search for nothing
While I search for something, something, something…** [Perhaps last chorus not needed]

NOTE:
I think I did a better job here, but it still needs a better bridge, I think. Or maybe longer stanzas. It was very vague and I think that it could have been better with a story or something. Otherwise, I more catchy melody or electronic sound would have to be in place for this… Rap is hard to write, but I am trying.

(Hours later) NOTE: After reading this out loud, I have decided that this isn’t really worthy to be on my site, but I will just leave it here just in case it makes for a good something else.